Have you ever been halfway through a conversation when you suddenly realized that you weren't listening at all? You were looking at the person. You were nodding at all the appropriate moments. You might have even thrown in an occasional "uh-huh" or "I understand." But if you are honest, your mind was already crafting your response. You were preparing your defense, gathering your thoughts, or deciding exactly what you wanted to say next. I think we've all been there. Recently, I was spending time in James chapter 1, and one verse seemed to leap off the page and settle deeply into my heart. James writes, "Everyone must be quick to hear, slow to speak and slow to anger" (James 1:19). What a simple verse. And yet, what a challenging one.
I think sometimes we have the wrong idea about what it means for God to save us. We pray for God to keep the bad thing from happening. Keep us from getting sick. Keep the person we love from dying. Keep the relationship from ending. Keep us from losing the job. Keep the diagnosis from coming. Keep our children safe. Keep the world from becoming more violent and divided. In other words, we pray for God to keep the fire away from us. And sometimes that happens. But sometimes it doesn't.
"Search me, God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is an offensive way in my way, and lead me in the way everlasting." Psalm 139:23-24 The small warning light flickered on the dashboard just as the highway merged into heavy morning traffic. For a few miles, the temptation was simply to ignore the tiny orange glow and turn up the radio, hoping the engine trouble would fix itself. But experienced drivers know that a warning light is never an enemy. It is a quiet mercy. It tells you about a hidden problem before you find yourself stranded on the shoulder miles from home.